uh..so i dont have much to say and i probably wont be uploading any art on my xanga any more cuz i have my deviantart.

www.astric-theartist.deviantart.com

DEAD TIRED (TAKE THIS PAIN)

I’m tired of trying to be what I’m not

Looking happy but I want to be sad

Thinking I need to hide my feelings

I felt so alone

I’m so dead tired of trying so hard

(chorus) 

God, take this pain from me

Set me free in the rain

I am struggling against and for you simultaneously

Jesus forgive me for all I’ve done against you

This whole time I’ve been faking

My outside was so happy

And inside a fake heartbreak

I did this so unconsciously

I don’t want to try anymore

That wasn’t going any further

Wasn’t getting me farther

(chorus)

I don’t feel the old pain anymore

For now all I feel is a heavy heart reminding me

Reminding me to give up to you

I know what to do

As I always have

But that doesn’t help that I know all the right answers

(chorus)